Sometimes parents know best but most of the time they don’t.

Just saw first hand that people in my family don’t like to discuss that which makes them uncomfortable. Explains so much…

falling in love with potential is the worst.

We know life is full of changes but it isn’t until they smack us that we realize, fully, that

…it applies to us.

We mentally prepare and say we’re ready

then it happens

and there is nothing to do but GO or NOT.

I choose GO for better or worse

I may not have everyone with me

But I have ME.

And in this world ME is what I can rely on to get me through.

Everyone else can come along for the ride

Which is going to be wild. You in or you out?

I’m not trying to boil the ocean. I’m trying to raise the tide.

I take comfort in that no one reads this. Well kinda. If they do it’s the people who know me, for better or worse.

Feeling very blessed, amidst my stress. Tis a good thing, a very good thing.

Walking the….tightrope… as I call it. So. easy. to. sli__p

But, feeling anchored at the root, and that is what keeps you stable at the end of the day.

Read a short story the other night which also had a tightrope theme, very different in emotional sentiment but still resounding. Better yet, was the discovery of a new author and a solid work. His style and tone struck a chord and reminded me why I love Coupland so much - brutal honesty with a descriptive narrative in the sympathetic voice  of vulnerable humans.

It’s called, “My Last Attempt to Explain to You What Happened with the Lion Tamer,” by Brendan Mathews.

Here’s to reading before bedtime. Short stories are the best.

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Urban Jungle by *Jenovah-Art

Love this. Everything about it. And it doesn’t hurt it was all done in devinatART Muro (web-based drawing tool.) I <3 creativtiy + fun.

Suddenly things are starting to become more clear. There’s the shocking realization that I’ve been choking off my air supply since childhood. It takes a lot to keep things shoved down when you aren’t able or comfortable to just let it out. Finding my voice and not strangling it out of someone else’s potential discomfort with what I might say… The world’s emotions, especially those I care about, are not my responsibility to protect.

New purchase.